kissedbubyedenkissedmeaway

ramblings of a constipated female

2009-10-16T13:43:00.000+08:00

hah dont mind the title.
but indeed i am constipated.
and i wanna blog so much but i just donoe wat to blog about.

i regret deleting my nefecleox.blogspot.com.
the post are backdated from 2002 u noe.
wat to do.... acting harshly will cause regrets in later days.
like now.
i shoud have just deleted the post on which i screw my class advisor instead of deleting the whole blog.
hah i rmmbr another advisor of mine told me whilst i was in keplog doing my internship.
"Khadijah, u bettteeerrr delete ur post in ur blog. u call her bitch n kuda. u can be expelled. or she can even sue u..."

bedek ah siak. nothing happened. menyesal aku delete.

and now, Sadiq wants me to delete dis blog. becoz of some conflicts wif a certain mofo.
haiz (-,-)''
one after another la.
leave us alone bole takkkkkkkk??????

please. i don wanna delete dis blog.
i don wanna regret again.
watever u read here... just keep it to urself and stop asking around.
or i'll have to private dis space.
baru kau tk dpt berita pasal linlinlinlindaaaaaaaaaaa.

menyampah aku.

floodgates

2009-10-15T13:34:00.000+08:00

i've been in the office since 7am.
and its almost 2pm now.
and i cant stop drinking
and half hour later i'm peeing.
since morning i've had

a packet of iced soya bean milk.
a can of Mirinda Orange.
a can of Yeo's Chrysanthemum Tea.
500ml of plain water.
a packet of iced tea.

i didnt even eat any food.
haha
prangai sak.
mati aku kalau mak bapak aku tahu.kene piat2 nnti telinga ku.
lol
apa bole bikin kn.
my menses coming se.
haus. dahaga.

nothing much to update here.
am just waiting for payday payday payday.
nk buy for shorty cetak kueh.nyahahahahhahahaha

Alhamdullilah...
my family is happy.
my love life is blissful.
my job.... *rolls eyes*

k la. update next time. nk terberry ni!

lonely

2009-10-06T11:48:00.001+08:00

so...
its been 10 days living my life without lilbro.
the house has been pretty much quiet
and definitely less smokey. lol

i miss him alot & i cried everytime i read his last sms.
he is now on his way to Jeddah. "jalan tempat lanun" he said.

and 3 days since gramma head off to Kelantan AGAIN.
Daddy trustfully lent his car to Sadiq
and off we head to JB larkin.
kesian mambang aku tu. he looked uncomfy and de best part...
manual la dey.
dahlah sempit. kene maen gear.
wakakakak

when gramma wanted to board the bus...
she turned to Sadiq FIRST!
SADIQ EH!! not me. menyampah aku.
bakal cucu hantu la konon.
"Adiq, terime kasih antar nenek. jaga diri baik2 tau"

ish ish! jeles! Jeles!

i wonder how long will she be there this time round.

so... lil sis and myself are quite lonely.

dat explains why i am doing overtime practically everyday.
i dont reali like to be in a quiet home.

Either OT or go Boon Lay doing nothing n rotting
maklomlah tgh blajar nak jadik sampah.
wakakakakak

and my dearest uncle is getting married in dec.
and he too will move out.
omg. daddy, mummy, lil sis n myself ONLY??????

very tu lan.
seriousli. (-,-)''

hahahari rayaaa

2009-09-20T12:41:00.002+08:00

to all my frens/blogmates,

Just wanna wish u guys Selamat Hari Raya.
minta mahap kalau ade terkacau, terkutok, terkata dan ter ter yg laen.
hehehehe

Have a good one yeah.
:)

And a not-so-happy 22nd to me.
lol!
like farah said... dua dua to tha tua.
ahahhahaha
and Sadiq, Thanks for the wonderful day.
it meant alot. :)

i am quite upset.
lil bro's gonna head for his attachment in like 6 days time.
its like a year of separation from dis temperamental baby bro of mine.
gosh. life aint gonna be de same...
but i wish him all the best.
hope dis eye opening experience is gonna turn him a into a good independant man.
InsyaAllah.

Selamat Hari Lahir Sayang

2009-09-12T16:29:00.000+08:00

A Year Older.
A Year Wiser.
A Man Who Taught Me Alot.
And Piss Me Off Alot Too. Hehehe

But Then Again, This 29 Year Old Man Is Worth It.

Watever Shit Is Happening, Be Strong Dear.
I Am With You ThruOut.
Happy 29Th Sayang.
Will Have A Belated/Combined Celebration After Raya ok.

rela

2009-09-09T12:38:00.000+08:00

tak ubah berbunga lalang
rendahnya pandanganmu
padaku yang amat memerlukan

kegersangan sekeping hati
mengharapkan setitis embun
agar basah rindu ini

aku yang terbiar sejak mula lagi
puas ku merintih puas ku berduka

kuhanya mampu berserah
beserta doa harapan
ubahlah haluan hidup ini

demi cinta yang menyala
kurela menggengam bara api
demi kasih yang mengharum
sungguh aku rela
biar pun pada pandangan
seperti bunga yang layu terbuang
namun kau pasti tahu
semua kerna aku masih lagi
setia padamu
biarku menangis seumpama pengemis

kuhanya mampu berserah
beserta doa harapan
ubahlah haluan hidup ini

hi liv the minahrep!

2009-09-07T12:22:00.000+08:00

Dear Liv,

Pertaining to the tags that u posted on my tagboard, would realy appreciate it if u stop whatever u're doing. reason being, it takes more to bring down my blissful *aawww* relationship. I am not going to retaliate even though by birth i am a minah. (without the REP of course) I am not up to ur REPish standards. Ooops i digressed.
Well, its my turn to do the explaining and stop reading if it causes anger or jealousy.

Firstly, u said
"girl, kau tahu sape sadiq? he is just making use of u lah! he is still in love with his ex gf. Linda"
Wats love without presence? He is making use of me? Den wat makes u tink i am not making use of him? Like in ur terms, "ade pergi ade balek jack"

"he wants to wed her once she's out. itu hari time lepak2 dia ckp gitu lagi. kau telan asap sua"
yeah so lets sit down and pray dat she'll be released. *inserts angelic face* and let sadiq and linda get married ok. and i'm willingly to be wife number TWO! and we'll see who's gonna bite the dust.

"muka cina kopet. apa yg kau ada compared to linda? nothing ok. she is so much better compared to u"
ooohhh! i love dis statement of urs. what have i got is it?
oh well here goes nothing (Sorry Sadiq & Momoi. but i gotta shut dis retard up)
1) at least i am in SG! living a life and not locked up behind bars in China for doing something stupid
2) i dont "fall in love" wif niggars.
3) my family is not broken.
4) i earn my own dough and not from my pussy.
5) ok i can go on and on if i dont stop now.

oh well... the demeaning thing is... i cant cook. but like so???

"sadiq tak pernah sygkan kau ok. he is just making use of u alright. shameless fatty!"
being shameless gets me where i am now. and i'm making use of him too. haha right dear?

"kau jgn jadi pompan tak tahu malu k. back off lah sial! Sadiq is forever Linda's. and NEVER YOURS."
NO. i will never back off. Used to be hers. But now he's mine. Seriousli, ur words and curses are not making any effect on me.

I don wanna be fanatical here. But pls just leave us alone. I've been thru shit after shit just to be dis happy.

Yous Truly,
JAJA the not so Minah

hahahaha haizz
panjang2 aku type... confirm si Liv melawan.
maklomlah.. UNEDUCATED HOOLIGANS!
Sarap aaahhhh siaaak! wakakakakakak

who?

2009-09-03T18:13:00.000+08:00

WHY ALL THE BOLLOCKS???

I DONT WANNA BE SITI KHADIJAH BINTE MOKHTAR ANYMORE.

Be in my shoes
and u'll understand.

realli.
i hate me.

Pls take me away.
I cant take this anymore.

mundane

2009-09-03T12:16:00.000+08:00

just a quick update!

Mummy has turned 42 and our love/~~hate~~ bond is gettin stronger.
hehe
partly thanks to Sadiq.
every time he comes over... mummy will sit with us.
she dont coop up in her room as much.

ah malas ah nak potpet many2

bdae coming.
and i'm like 22?
*pulls hair*
a comforting thought though.
at least i'm not turnin 29 YET!
hahaha

k bye!

budak da gemok

2009-08-26T17:57:00.000+08:00

Sadiq mentioned to me a few days back that a certain someone has grown fatter.
haha conferm cute.
i cant wait to meet dat lil gemok.
and give a kiss on the head.
wooohooooooo

evil is live. just spelt backwards

2009-08-23T09:24:00.000+08:00

EVIL
a word which has been haunting my mind the past few days.

AM I EVIL?

for speakin up my mind?
for being direct?
for opening up their eyes?

maybe the way i put it is.
but i'm not.

and dear...
sorry if i've been giving u dis kind of face lately...

tgh PMS la sayaang!! haha

only 2 weeks....

2009-08-22T11:07:00.000+08:00

its been 2 weeks since dat revolting Melaka trip.

and now i'm already missing

laying down doing nothing at all.

to have meals at the seaside

and in "open buffet" style

not forgetting the satay. purely sinful & lemaklicious!

the exhilirating time with the sun sand sea & chlorine water.

the hot spring and get ourselves soaked with sweat

The turtle egg laying experience...

ermm and the turtle jadi jadian. hahaha

letting ourselves loose and just relax....

and the 2 person which i miss most....

Sonia & Fasha
wakkakakakaka

i noe Sadiq's upset now....

say.. how about another getaway in november?
hahahah
*kening naek-naek*

Thosai Kusmangat

2009-08-19T21:29:00.000+08:00

Had a 2 Day ESS Course at Kaplan's City Campus.
and the good thing...
no need to go to work.
haha

and dis morning, Sadiq sent me to the campus.
maklomlah aku.. nk manje. ngengada tk nk pegi sendiri.
we had our breakfast @ Tekka araa.
Sri Kamala's thosai.

Sadiq thought the size of the thosai would be small.
so he ordered 3 for himself and 2 for me.
Skali dtg... bapak thosai.
the Radius of the thosai is at least 15cm.
hahaha

mkn sampai muak geng.
mkn sampai tkle mkn.
hahaha
and when at the campus.

i'm hardly awake.
haha
coz i'm too full...

baca the banana leaf

and as promised... few pics from the past 2 weeks in SG
went to Qian Hu Fish Farm, SImpang Bedok & Hort PArk.

My Sadiq is the best la katekan.

KESIAN BUDAK NI! Kecik2 da mkn sireh!

5 LITTLE THINGS WHICH MADE THESE 5 MONTHS MEANINGFUL

2009-08-17T15:07:00.000+08:00

Your very lovable soul which accepts me for who I am. Regardless of what state I am in, the warmth of your love will leave me feeling warm throughout.

A selfless person you are. Will be adhering to my every wimps and wants, needs and demands.

The way you bicker with me. Irritate the hell out of me. Trying to put a smile on my face after I faced a very black day. You’re just amazing.

Your capability of making people feel at ease even if they just know you. And not having the heart to break hearts.

You are one in a zillion Sadiq, Truly special and everything nice.

THANK YOU FOR THE 5 MONTHS OF LOVE, LOVE.

p/s will update bout the past week soon. I am still in loveydovey land

waving waves

2009-08-08T00:43:00.002+08:00

A lil exhausted but the day was well spent.
From Henderson to Kranji to Yew Tee to AMK to Yew Tee again. and back home.
But dearest still tk reti erti PENAT! now he's at Taman Jurong.
Meeting his 1st wife. Zul. hehe

We went to the wave bridge.
We have to go uphill.
and both da mcm khinzir lendih ok.
plus panting like fuck.
Kesian dia eh.
da dress up skali bukak baju.
hehehe prangai sungguh Sadiq.
and left with his singlet ahpek.
hahaha

i'm reali thankful.
reali reali thankful.
Sadiq voluntarily went to Yew Tee n let me meet Farah n Tatat.
ANd he himself suggested to go meet Rina @ AMK
even though the meet is short, rindu ku terubat la eh.
Its been so long dat de 4 of us could meet at de same time.

U're de sweetest treat dat i ever could ask for dear.
I could never ask for more.

and just one more day
24 more pathetic hours.

and we'll be having our well deserved getaway.

Urs truly biography

2009-08-07T09:30:00.000+08:00

Its friday!
lagi 2 hari.
and i'm like cacing kepanasan already.
super duper excited.
its been awhile since i went for a short getaway with the family.
and as an added bonus, the other half is coming too.
best kan. best kan.
hahaha

anyways....
i am so lucky lor.
i dont have to be famous to have a biography.
i dont have to be dead to have a biography.
i just need to have a very lovable boyfren.
and waalllaa!!
he's now blogging bout me and our love life.
sweetest thing aint he.
hehehe

so if there's no update on this domain,
kindly go to Sadiq's blog

ok la. maybe i'm just showing off.
who wouldnt be proud to have bf like such.

and intentionally to menggelikan/meluatkan org yg geli/meluat wif me and him.

like they say, curiosity kills the cat.
and curiosity will lead dat org geli/meluat to click on Sadiq's link.
GUARANTEED!
nyahahaha

bye ah!

2009-08-02T16:46:00.001+08:00

Sadiq Hassan,

I am sorry. I reali am.
I shouldnt have said those hurtful words.
I assure u Sadiq, in every beat of my heart. its beating for u.

The ex is my past.
U're my present.
And I want u to be a part of my future too.
Watever i said, it is just to spite u.
Sincerely i apologise.

Dis 6 days has been pure hell.
Not meeting u. (yesterday 10 mins didnt count)
The never ending squabbles is just obstacles.

i miss u like hell Sadiq.
reali i do.

I dont care wat others say anymore.
Its my relationship. Not theirs.
It takes more to ruin us.

I reali hope u give me some time.
I'm aware that I'm difficult at times.

But we gotta work things out.
We are gonna make dis relationship work.

I want u Sadiq.
All of u.
Remember de 1st song?
All Or Nothing.

I Love You Dear.
With all my heart.

isabella songsang

2009-08-01T21:14:00.000+08:00

haha tak tahu keje sape eh.
sape2 yg tahu tolong diam eh.
LOL!
bored la siol saturday tkde hala tujuan

sibling love ehh

2009-08-01T16:24:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to say.
i just love my lil sibs alot.
to bits and pieces.
even though they do irritate me sometimes.
Nevertheless...
"BLOOD IS THICKER DEN WATER"

1 more week!!

2009-07-31T22:08:00.000+08:00

i'm very very bored.
work has been a bitch. NOT.
i'm the bitch at work.
i scream like non stop hits la sia.
wakakakaka

and for Sadiq, we are constantly arguing.
I understand he's reali stressed about the trip.
All dis is all last minit plannin.
i dont blame him at all.
but the arguments just get on my nerves.
eeeee geram.
tapi sayang la.
haha

Gramma is back at home!
Yabedabeddooo! i miss her so so much.
:)
And like finally Ryan came.
He's growing up too fast. :(
and too smart.
lol
he's our family lil gem now i guess

wif mum and dad

nakal kan dia

wif urs truly la sey! haha

Mad

2009-07-29T22:02:00.000+08:00

**Steal From Ne-Yo's Mad**

So both of us are mad for nothing
Fighting for nothing
Crying for nothing
When we won't let it go for nothing,
come back for nothing,
it should be nothing
to a love like what we got

I know some times it's gonna rain,
But baby can we make up now
cause' I can't sleep through the pain

boy I don't want to go to bed, mad at you
and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me

Baby this love ain't gonna be perfect
And just how good it's gonna be
We can fuss and we can fight long as everything is alright
between us before we go to sleep...

mummy's revenge

2009-07-27T21:55:00.000+08:00

Duhai Bonda,

apakah salah kami berdua sehingga kami dihukum sebegini?
adakah kerna kami tidak pulang pada hari Sabtu yg lepas?
Paham2 je ah. Payday pe.. mane nak lekat pat ruma kan.
Atau kerna donut yg Sadiq belikan tidak mencukupi?
Mengapa Bonda?
MENGAPA!?!?!?!?

haha
On Sat, went to Istana Menanti wif Sadiq.
Yati n Norman joined us later in the night.
Myself n Sadiq ate like there's no food tomorrow.
Ade org semangat beli kuah Asam Pedas dgn roti sebantal ok.
hahaha check2 roti bwk balek bagi mak aku.
i over ate and me and Sadiq have a farting competiton thruout the night.
lol.

On Sun, had our brunch at BeachRoad.
and den... first time aku nmpk Mee Bakso campor cili sos.
hahaha sedap pe dear??
and we shopped till we drop.
seriously.. PUAS HATI ah....
and i cant wait to see Sadiq in his OshKosh jumper.
confirm cutes bangets. hehehe

dah penat la kan.
we headed home.
Sadiq was showing off his goods to Mummy.
and den bout 6pm... Mummy asked us to "wakil" her to dis CC event.
her fren is performning a dance but she wanted to go shopping instead.
and the tix will be wasted if no one attended.
She said ade LUCKY DRAW.. mkn2 etc.

Sadiq agreed to go la kan.
padahal dia yg mula2 ckp battery dia da flat.

so we cabbed there....
when we reach kan...
we were greeted by....

tu takpe la kan....
My Mum punye "makan-makan" pon bole tahan tau!
makan-makan consist of
1 scoop of fried beehoon
1 piece of siewmai
1 piece of prawn ball
1 chicken drumlet
1 mini tuna sandwich

wakakkaa
makan kene ration joy.

hmmm apart from dat kan....
i was given a crash course to "ahpek n nyonya karaoke"
pecah la siak.
lol

and the last straw..
the show hasnt even ended.
they're already stacking up the chairs.
*smacks forehead*

mind you!
initially we're sitting at more to the front rows.
and tadaa...
kerusi dorang da angkut and behind us is empty!
terok kans.
hahhaa

i wanted to leave already...
but Sadiq being the patient boifren said...

"Ibu da amanahkan kita kan. tunggu lucky draw. tunggu la sampai lucky draw."

and guess wat la eh...

NO LUCKY DRAW!!! hahahah

see... Mummy's revenge.
We're at one stupid CC event. and she... shopping.
hahhaa

the first ever.

2009-07-23T21:43:00.006+08:00

He's the first ever.
A small gesture.
But i'm very very touched la.

today was hell for me at work.
i've to do billing for F&N trucking.
and it was backdated for 3 months hokay.
and everybody else was busy too.
it was already 2pm and still nobody is going for lunch.
I called Sadiq up and grumbled.
Non stop grumbling.

Automatically he asked,
"nak makan ape dear"

*tandok naek*
i asked for KFC. haha
both for me and Samantha (colleague of mine)

within half an hour,
i'm eating my Bandito.
lol
personal delivery by urs truly Sadiq Hassan.

Even Samantha mentioned,
"Wah Siti, can see dat ur 'laogong' dote on u so much leh"

hehehe dis man of mine
will find all sorts of means and ways to make me fall for him even more.

aku suke sekali oookkkkkk.

and i am so bloody excited.
on the 9th! going for a Melaka trip with the family and Sadiq's coming along too!
definitely i wanna be in Sadiq's ride.
nyahahahaha

come soon. come soon.
please.

officially wise.

2009-07-22T15:15:00.000+08:00

March... i went for a dental X ray and de dentist said,

"u are one lucky girl. u dont have wisdom teeth"

mepektempeks bodo ni dentist.
i have one out now.
and 2 more on the way.
she punked me sia.
40 bucks gone for an xray which proved the otherwise.

so now... i'm officially wise?

ok la merepek.

A month back, Sadiq and i shared a lappy.
and we take turns la kan bringing it home.
but dua2 dengki ok.
as Acer gamezone gives us a complimentary 1 hour for every game.
we are both racing/rushing to finish every game.
haha busuk hati kaudu/cowdung

Dis Stupid Person

2009-07-21T14:48:00.000+08:00

Dis stupid person is not heartless.
Coz dis stupid person didnt leave u in the lurch to fend for yourself.
If dis stupid person wants to leave from the start, she would and could have done so.
Instead dis stupid person stayed on as her love for you is hard as a rock.
Dis stupid person actuali believed in u.
Dis stupid person is not smart like ur ex's to leave u behind.
Dis stupid person must be very stupid to fall in love wif someone smart; like you.

daddy oh daddy!

2009-07-16T21:57:00.003+08:00

My dearest dad.
Forever full of his merepeks antics. haha
Dats his genes i'm having in me.
his merepeking genes.

Guess wat did he call dis kind of underwear....

some people call it sluar dlm mak mak...
roti prata la....
but its actuali just a normal high cut panty.

but dis dear dad of mine....
called it....

SELUAR DALAM LADY GAGA!!

hahhahaha

hahaha get it lovelies? lol

ketawa ahhhh.
klakar merepek kan kan kan

and i love dis man of mine

gambar2 sahaja

2009-07-11T15:34:00.003+08:00

the pix from yesterday....

FAT & THIN nyahahaha

Sadiq's Precious

smua nak gi slimming.

the dudes

cute BEARS, PERASAN CUTE, family cute, OBVIOUSLY PALING CUTE

romantis tapi malu. nyahaha

2009-07-11T09:33:00.001+08:00

helllooo!!!

its 9.30 am on a Saturday morning!
and de lamest thing of all....
i'm working! bah!!!

with 2 hours of sleep only...
my brain is going @*^$*@^*%(#^

i was "FORCED" to follow to ECP last night.
immediately after i knock off from work
tk bagi chance aku balek freshen up pon
i don wanna go coz i was shagged and i dont see de need to come.
furthermore i've sponsored 1 whole big box of lobsters sak.

AJUT MAKELS book a pit and Sadiq became the pit planner.
and was reali reali pissed+bored+tired+verybored+extremelytired

there's a difference between asking for help and taking advantage of people kindness.
i was reali pissed @ AJUT.
true la its his belated bdae pit. and he booked the pit.
but den,
tukang organise Sadiq.
tukang beli barang2 Sadiq.
tukang drive Sadiq.
tukang masak Sadiq.
tukang prepare brg2 bbq pon Sadiq.

The last straw... da pat pit... tukang bakar pon Sadiq.
and i was chucked at one side.

fucking binget lor.
he wants me to help.
oh pls. i didnt even lift a finger to help.
ZILCH! bole buat muka ronyok lagi.
haha.

being in ultra-petty mode.
i refused to eat anything.
or drink anything.
sampai la ade rock concert dlm perot at ard 11+pm.

buroks giles babis punyes perangais.

lol.

but wat reali i wanna story2 about today is Sadiq's romantic side.
seriously hopelessly romantic sak.

few days back, he gave me a wrist rest (when using the mouse)
and wrote a short note on dat thing

"this is the only support dat i can give now. but there's more to come from me"

geddit? geddit?

den yesterday, he burnt a CD for me.
siap dgn gmbr kita and titled "for my dear Jaja" printed on the CD (yek eleh pakai lightscribe)
and the songs smua kirekan kalau nak on setting kene "turn ur lights down low"
hahaha

so de thing is...
his frens wanna play the CD at the pit yesterday.
and dis BF of mine turned beetred.
wakakakakak
malu la konon.

like i said earlier... setting turn ur lights down low kan...
so at 2+am when we are heading back Father Bear requested to play the CD.
and at the back sumpah da mcm multi species fishes dlm tin yg da expire.
ikan bilis 3 ekor and ikan jaws 4 ekor anak ikan sekor.
ok ok digress lagi (-________-)zzzzzz

so... i was sitting with my back towards him
when the CD started playing
he pulled me into his arms.
held me tight and whispered "listen carefully"
wakakaka at dat very moment... aku cair meleleh eh.
ahahaha and sway left to right. held my hand. nuzzle at my shoulder.
goodness. and when de song "All My Life" was played.
the grip he was giving me tightened.
kirekan mcm da kene squeeze sak aku.
hahaha Sadiq, Sadiq...

kau ni da mcm closet romantist ah.

i'm sure Mother Bear and Father Bear wont believe dis.
wakakakak
coz thruout they onli see we kutok/diss/shout/scream/punch/pinch/kick each other.

tol tak? tol tak?

when the going gets tough

2009-07-08T10:46:00.000+08:00

The pace at work has slowed down a bit.
and i'm working VERY smart now instead of working real hard.
Prolly due to the extra help i'm getting from the intern and dat new guy.
After so long... i managed to knock off at 6pm sharp for 2 weeks+ already

and my pimples have stopped growing.

the past 3 months has been pure hell i tell u.
at the age of ALMOST 22... i had a pimple breakout.
veryvery late re-puberty. haha

up till now...
i'm still clueless wats de cause of de breakout.

Prime reason maybe,

1) Very Very Stressed with work and money and more money.
2) The Kidney Repairing Medication
3) Revlon Foundation and Two Way Cake
4) My massive consumption of peanuts cap Jari. hahaha

To rectify the face, i stopped
1) Stressing myself about work. i went out more with Sadiq
and irritate the hell out of each other.
2) I took the medicine every other day
3) I Peng-ed back to Loreal and Maybelline
4) still no action taken.

nyahahaaha

goodness gracious.
i keep on seeing Sadiq evrywhere man.
nk kate hallucination...
aku tk reti nk pumpberg ni smua.
wakakaka entah lah eh.

and btw jen... aku bukan tamak cinta...
AKU TAMAK POKER CHIPS! lalalala

Sadiq's favourite line when poker-ing "Dear... (insert ANGELIC face) Trust me on dis"
and immediately he go for ALL in and LOSE ALL.
ahahahah
k la. sape2 yg tk otak poker mcm aku tkkn faham
tapi pls tkmu mcm paham k.

have a good day/week/month/year people!
whichever is applicable till my next post. hahaha

my greatest lover.

2009-07-03T09:15:00.001+08:00

When i met u, that guarded wall, just crash onto the ground.
Without hesitation, i gave u my fully loaded trust.
Starting from scratch, boy am i glad to say, "i'm by ur side thruout"
We may fight and hurl abusives at one another like nobodies business.
But its just our way to show affection.

With u, my patience was put to the ultimate test.
See... i'm just like u and u're just like me.
Strongheaded yet lembek like marshmellow.
One problem after another, yet we pulled thru.

Dat twinkle in ur eyes fascinate me still.
From the very first day up till now.
When u smile with that exasperated sigh.
My heart jumped with joy.
U're opening up urself.
And dats an achievement.

U're my pride.
U're my new found bestfren.
U're my pillar of strength.
U're my advocate whether i'm wrong or right.

Ur presence belittle all problems no matter how big or fucked up they are.

Sadiq Hassan, u're the greatest lover of all.
Don't pity. Just love me. Whole heartedly.

kids cock talkin'

2009-06-23T14:10:00.001+08:00

i was doodlin and humming.
feelin empty and drained.
but suddenly an image crossed my mind.
its Natalya.. The Mr's niece.

for a 6 year old....
her voice is so shrill
her actions so agile
her wits so quick.

a week back i was traumatised by her.
imagine from noon till night.
she was like a fly on top of my head.
hahaha

a convo i had with her during our first few minutes of warming up.
(she refer to herself as kakak)

Her: Auntie, Auntie tahu spell ape?
Me : Auntie tk tahu spell lah. Auntie tk gi skul dulu.
Her: (showing off) Kakak tahu spell! Kakak gi skul.
Me : Kakak tahu spell ape?
Her: Alaaaa senang la Auntie! Kakak tahu spell BUTTERFLY!
Me : ah cepat la spell ajar Auntie.
Her: (confident gile babi dgn muke tak bersalah)
R~A~.... RA.... M~A~..... MA..... Butterfly....!!
Me : (smacks forehead) Like uncle like niece.

hahahaha
i wonder if i'm dat witty when i was a kid... nyahaha

Dear Allah, Make My Moyang Better Dear Allah.
At Least Till I Go Back Dear Allah.
I Can't Bear Seeing Nenek Sad Dear Allah.

grandmother

2009-06-18T11:40:00.000+08:00

*mat rock kapak mood*

Gua fed up! Gua upset! Gua suda biol. Gua musang!
nyahahah

nenek gua sua balek kampong.
and maybe dia patah balek singapore lmbt lagi.
dia peh mak which is gua peh moyang saket kuat.
gua tkde sen. gua tkle amek leave.
gua mahu balek kampong. dah 6 tahun gua tak balek.
upset gila babi geng.

Lu org ada kampong?
tkda kampong tolong diam.

gua dudok2 chillin2 one corner.
ade terpikir jugak ah.
WAT IF... (wat if aje k)
kalo nenek gua dah tkde...
apa akan jadi dgn keluarga gua?
huraharatonggangterbalek wa biling lu.

lagi2 gua punye bilek dilanda todak
gua peh kotak rokok KOSONG anywhere everywhere.
gua peh ashtray kalo bole nk buat tinggi mcm mount faber.
gua peh sluardlm bnyk buat tangkal
gua peh katil kalo nenek gua tk kemaskan... dah bole jadi kebun pak mamat.

wakakakaka

abe lu org pikir ah...
kalo gua suda kering, rokok sape gua mahu chongkong?
pagi2 kalo gua suda lmbt... sape mahu side gua kalo mummy gua mrh2?
sape mahu layankan gua bila gua PMS gila babi.
sape mahu g isap rokok pat tangga ngan gua bile pegi jemputan?
sape mahu loan gua duit 2 ketol tiga ketol?
sape mahu bising kat gua suro "mkn ubat mkn ubat"
sape nak masakkan gua sotong masak hitam?
sapa nak garokkan gua punye blakang bila gatal?
sapa nak share hair dye ngan gua?

sape sape sape?

abeh lu pat kampong sapa nak letakkan bedak pat blakang lepas mandi?
sape nak check kn atas kepala ade jerawat ke tk?
ice cube sape lu mahu mengecek nnti?

ok la. when it comes to gramma, i'm just her spoilt brat.
i'm missing her so much already. :(
she was de one who raise me up (and made me fat)
lol!

nenek....
cepatlah balek.

apa maksud eh?

2009-06-12T16:04:00.000+08:00

"prangai u da sama mcm my ex tunang"

ape maksud ni?
apa yg sama?

sorry sikit eh.
in comparison i am soooooooo much better then they are/she is.

ur eyes are so blinded by ur past till u cant see.

AKU TAK FAHAM AR!!! SUNGGUH TAK FAHAM!!!

**kepala kau da terhantok. dont tell me till now kau maseh tk sedar yg kau dipergunakan

Nur Adriana

2009-06-10T23:27:00.002+08:00

just like an angel.

i swear upon my life.
i wont let anybody do her any harm.

i've fallen in love. with her so so deep.

budak itam kuat melalak

2009-06-06T10:31:00.003+08:00

arggh!
binget! binget!
lately i cant have a peaceful nite sleep!
u noe becoz of who??

all becoz of The Mr's son.
asek melalak jek.

LOL! LOL!!
he bought me dis tabung a few weeks back.
Cute kape. rambut nye... kulitnye... matanye... pipinye...
sebijik mcm Sadiq Hassan.
abe siap ade tears lak tu.
paikia lah tu. kononnye.
hahaha

_______________________________

To: Missy NuR @ Nurharyati

takmu kemaruks eh.
aku tahu Norman suare merdu.
ahahhah
and thanks for dinner and the coach bag.
appreciate it lots and lots.

_______________________________

After work yest, met with The Mr @ Boon Lay
The initial plan; just a quiet dinner.
But ended up with a double date dinner with Norman and Yati.
After dinner... we went to West Coast Park.
The Mr chose to sit at the water breakers.
LOL. at first everything was all fine and good.

but den i heard squeak squeak squeak
kiwak aku punye paranoid....
LOL!!
tikos siak
eeeeee! mouse! mice! rat! mondok!
tak tahu ah ape ah.
cb sak!
depan blakang kiri kanan.
Pariah sak aku kalau tikos. LOL.
And my dearest Sadiq Hassan asek ketawekan aku jek
and dats supposed to make me feel better?
Tupid Swine. wakakaka

At last we moved.
and i had a nice time talking with him.
no cursing. no shouting.
just plain happy pills infested conversation.

ard 12+ we balek lor.
since Norman's controlling the wheels
i & the Mr kene sumbat pat blakang.
and i slept.
Once at my void deck.
sumpah sak
prangai aku mcm budak gemok 4 tahun.
wakaka
tknk bangun tkpe...
mintak dokong. wakakakaka

hahaha
and the answer pat tagboard smua salah!
bobobodooooo! LOL!

hallooossss!

2009-06-05T09:19:00.000+08:00

EH DAH UPDATE DAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tkmu bnyk bunyi eh eh eh
LOL!!

ahahahah
TGIF!!!

didnt update for de past week.
coz my week has been pretty hectic and hap(PENING)!!

jus a lil summary

28th May 2009
The Mr had a breakdown again.
i tink he reali need his depressant pills badly.
i was at the extend of losing my sanity.
the quarrel was so bad dat he left me in a daze at my void deck.

29th May 2009
was getting ready to go to work.
and i noticed something was amiss.
Oh shitto! My wallet.
ugh! seems dat Bonia wallets don't reali like me.
as dis is the 2nd time i've lost my wallet.
and coincidentally.. both times its Bonia.
with $100+ in cash. $70 value in my Ezlink.
And its de 2nd time my IC got lost. cbkia.
$300 gonna go to ICA. ppoofff!~

30th May 2009
Nur Adriana @ Chepetz Junior was born!
my oh my. an exact replica of her mummy.
i noticed babies wif sepet eyes looks kinda mischievous.
hehs.

1st, 2nd & 3rd of June 2009
keje mcm org gila.
org gila pon tk keje mcm aku.
was super duper shagged.

4th June 2009
Witnessed 2 mentels 1st meetup.
LOL!!
cute la dorang.
the female was tergamam at 1st.
the male... was hyper mentel.
betol. aku tk bedek.
I'm quite glad to see dat the male is happy.
he deserved to be happy after the unfateful shits he's been thru.

5th June 2009
my piss dah pat hujong!
nk terkucil gile babi punye.
i ran to the toilet.
Usually i'll lift up the toilet seat.
but den... dah kes desperate.
i didnt lift up de toilet seat.
i lift up my dress and pull down my undies and sat.
Followed by a super duper loud "OUCH!!! Saket bodoh!!!"

GUESS LA EH WAT HAPPEN! PLS EH GUESS!!!!!
whoever gets de correct answer...
i'll treat u and ur beau dinner. sumpah tk bedek!
:)

hahahaa

happy weekend lovelies!!

dah setahun dahhhhhhh

2009-05-27T10:16:00.000+08:00

so...
on 27th May 2009 marks my 1st year being with CWT Logistics.
Time reali flies. so fast and voila~! dah setahun.

i still vividly remember...
My 1st day of work...

asek TER-doze off jek.
Teaching the French administrators to smoke kretek.
Using Skype to report problems to the Seafrigo's HQ in France.
Working on Sat and Sundays for the F&N set up.
Had Pizza for Lunch and Mcdonalds practically evryday
Being over excited coz the warehouse is COOL.
at minus twentyfive degrees celsius...
Its definitely cool.

lol
i'm talking in circles.

So the point is...
I proved to Mummy that I can work.
and i dont job hop.

i've been swearing and be sweared at.
i've been shouting and got shouted back
i've been getting stressed up till the extend of having pimple breakouts.
(this is fuckin serious man. PIMPLES saaaak!!)
i've behaved barbaric-ly and i learn to speak a lil Cina (PRC style)
u noe thank you pronounced as (fhaaankk Q!)

I am thankful. I am blessed.

Rina is having an op instead of normal labour.
coz chepetz junior just don wanna comeout.

i cant wait. reali reali cant wait.

a fren in need.

2009-05-26T09:44:00.001+08:00

been doing alot of reflections during my weekend.
kononnye SOUL SEARCHING.

on 23rd May, The Mr was detained at Tuas 2nd Link.
it was 3 am in the morning sia.
and he was decked in his pyjama pants.
sungguh tk glamour.
I received a msg from him and Ajut.
by de time i wake up ard 3.30 am.
it was too late. the Mr Was uncontactable.

after which i just couldnt sleep back.
was online on msn. chattin half heartedly.

i even went jogging wif gramma at 7am. ahhaha
ME? JOG? dat was so unlikely of me.

after the jog... i am still restless.

till 11.30 am... i got a call from him.
senang je dia ckp
"dear, bail me out k? bwk i/c skali. i'm 4 thousand dollars worth"

and he's at Bedok Station.
From Tuas to Bedok? kejimbet punye jauh.

called Ajut up. asking him to accompany me.
why Ajut eh? its saturday pe...
most people preoccupied already.
and knowing Ajut... he'll go to any extend helping a fren in need.
towed in a cab, he pick me up from my void deck and off we go to Bedok.

haha meleret kape.

thruout that morning.
i've been tinking alot.
who are ur frens.
the real frens.

as for Kay... thanks alot babe.
for listenin and asking.
i needed that.
thank you for not making assumptions.
reali appreciate it.
and i love u too.
(the head was too muddled up on saturday to reply to a simple "i love u")

In situations like dis made me realise... when u're in deep shit... most people tend to disappear. and when u're up again, they'll be running back.

try being in my shoes. and u'll understand.

wat is left with the phrase "a fren in need is a fren indeed".

nothing. zilch.

hah i digressed alot didnt i.
so after bailing him out...
had our BRUNCH at Bedok's Interchange Banquet.
anytime anyday... i'll stick to gramma/mummy/mine/daddy/TheMr cooking
the sirloin steak was kinda tough and the taste was bland.
the crinkle cuts was overfried. urgh. not worth it man.

cabbed to Boon Lay. (thanks eh Ajut)
the Mr washed up and after dat we watched Angels and Demons @ JP.
the plot is interesting. but i still prefer reading the book tho.
more detailed and there's no limit to my imagination. LOL!

both of us ended up with a sore butt...
hahs as we were already seated at 7.10 and the movie ended almost to 10.
bontot aku semot2 sak.
had dinner and went to Boon Lay again to meet his frens
i reached home about 2 am.

ape sak aku merepek-ings ni

lol

and on SUnday, went to Zura's place again.
haha
i stil havent got them their house warming gift.
heesh...
this couple is a pain in my ass sia...
LOL! and thanks for all the advice.
Sadiq would have been a goner if not for the two of dem.

and we're going across the Straits dis end June wif Bob&Zura.
hehe nak carik kain
nak carik pasal
nak carik makan

Sewa kreta Honda eh dear eh eh eh.

my prayers.

2009-05-23T06:30:00.003+08:00

Dear Allah,

You saw how happy he was.
You saw how grateful he was.

But all this was shortlived.
Why?

Is there more den meets the eye?
Give me guidance dear Allah.

If he's done wrong, let him have his punishment.
If he hasn't, pls protect him.
And he's not a jinx dear Allah.
He's a changed man.

I need strength.

Amin

summary

2009-05-21T08:47:00.004+08:00

nari aku tknk bnyk bunyi.
coz BANYAK BUAL BANYAK BOHONG

1) Too many political issues at work.

2) Rina ajak aku rompak bank. But I rather rob a Sushi Shop instead

3) Its either u bother or u dont. Coz dat
"i.noe.evrything-i'm.de.best" attitude is not needed

4) When I'm not retaliating means u're no match for me. got my number.
holler me up. meet me n see da kene penumbok terase ke tk

5) Still considering for the Chalet or Yatch get away trip.

6) Calling up Rina everyday pressurising her to give birth.
Husband dia pon tk se-kiasu aku.

7) Pestering Kama to get married.

8) Wondering wat house warming gift to get for Zura&Bob./
engagement gift for Dya&Afad

9) Meet up dis people pretty soon
Ida/Kay/Nanawae/Mekmek/sophistikaGTC

10) Find ways to avoid the MARRIAGE topic.
The Mr has touched this topic like 6 times within 4 days

Chepetz Junior

2009-05-20T09:12:00.001+08:00

Rina... Oh Rina.......

Bila kau nak bersalin ni?
Cepat la anak kau klua....

but on weekdays k.
Bile kau nye bag air meletop ke.... tgh sarat nak beranak ke....
cepat2 sms aku la.
jadi aku leh amek halfday.
hahaha

i just cant stop looking at her dat day.
bile dia tgh diam... very angel-like and serene looking.
once she opens her mouth... all sorts of vulgarities spurts out.
i'm unaware dat an expectant mother nose would be kembang
i made fun of Rina's belly button and she's irritated by it. LOL!

Chepetz Shaw Junior... Come Soon. :)
and may u be as hot as ur mum... hehehe

p/s: Kay bile kau nak khawin? aku nak jadik mak andam kau bole? atau flower girl ke? mak pengantin ke. wakakakak

dunia.. dunia....

2009-05-15T09:59:00.000+08:00

fakes a *boohoohoo*
HOME ALONE AGAIN!!!
my family is going to KL dis weekend.
one of the relatives from maternal side gettin married.
erm pardon me for my ignorance with regards to my relatives.
~~hope dat mummy will go to KLCC and get me that eyepoppingmindreelingsalivadrooping GUESS top for me~~

so its (kama did i apply the word ITS correctly? LOLS!) just gonna be lil bro and me.
and my lovely parents simply cant choose a better day.
before my payday.
so i guess i'm gonna be a rotting couch potato....
am reali praying hard that The Mr will bring me out. LOL
oh well...we'll see how thing goes.

and i'm no longer pissed. i've gotten my Peppermint ice cream.
*senyom melerets*

blogging is so much fun aint it?
**bitching is so much exhilarating.
u never noe wat kind of response u'll get.

and i came across blogs which states they're affiliated to Islam.
wow. dats reali commendable.
being proud of ur religion.

BUT IT'LL BE SUCH A DISGRACE WHEN THE BLOG IS

- filled with images of booze...
- filthy pics of boobs spilling out from his/hers(huh??) top.

and etc etc. however i admit i'm somehow guilty for the acts mentioned above.

ntahlah eh...
DUNIA DUNIA........

**Just for the note.
BITHCHING IS NOT EQUIVALENT TO BEING WILD.

p/s no names mentioned nor directly referring to anyone.
takmu pandai2 nak terasa ok. LOL LOL

Workload overload

2009-05-13T14:11:00.001+08:00

my workload never seems to end
infact its gotten worse.

nvr in my life work has made me dis peanuts
just too plain overwhelming.
seriousli tinking of quitting.
but when considering the employment rate now.

i'd rather breathe. sit back. swear. curse like nobody's business and get back to work.

and and
one more thing.
somehow or rather.
i noe u'll be reading my blog.

its been 2 years and u just cant get it over and done with.
hah dis is how 23 year old MAN nowadays behave
bearing grudges. restricting the GF. HATING ME.
reason being... i'm being me and it irks u alot.
wat irks u more... ur GF finds us a fun bunch to hang out wif.
and u fear ur GF will behave like us.

excuse me ur highness in case u're unaware.
Ur GF have a mind of her own and she can jolly well tink which is good or bad.
we dont do the extreme stuff.
we aint junkies.
we dont rob or steal.
we dont kill.
havent u heard... "girls just wanna have fun?"

how KUNO can u be sia?

and pls stop using big extravagant words.
LOL
ur command of English sucks.
and when u include those "chim big" words.

u made urself look VERYVERYVERYstupid.

and to the GF... i bear no grudge towards u two.
i just find ur BF pathetic.

ur feedback is utmost welcome.
but pls... with simple yet smart english ok.

west coast-ing

2009-05-07T22:36:00.002+08:00

had dinner wif fellow amigos on 06/05/09
@ Ayer Rajah Food Centre.
almost every1 ate Indian Delicacy xcept 4 Phumba...
smua biber amaran terakhir eh...
after dat we sat @ a nearby garden n talk cock....

the Ladies....

Meets the Men

The Mr, Phumba & Fai

Double Js

RaMei RaMei....

Pose P Plate

Our Cute Jen Jen... :) Good Luck for Saturday.

We'll come with banners and pompoms... NOT!!! hahaha

white flag

2009-05-07T14:06:00.000+08:00

I Siti Khadijah Binte Mokhtar hereby declare that from today onwards,

- i'll just listen if anyone needs a listenin ear
- i shall not offer any single word of advice.
- i would learn to be passive and not so active anymore.

coz i realised today...
no matter how much advice i gave to people... (sometimes till the extend of my mouth foaming)
the one who ends up deciding is he/she and not me.
so no point getting my mouth filled with foam
not worth it.
the advices given were treated like go in right ear. come out left ear
wakakakak
pecah kape aku punye peribahasa omputeh
LOL!

bout being passive....
words are mightier den de sword.
:)

love is just a word

2009-05-03T22:57:00.002+08:00

first & foremost
CONGRATS JEN!!!!
for getting to the next round in Anugerah.
mesti kau nyanyi dgn penuh emosi.
maklomla lagu sungguh bermakna.... ahahah
i'm happy for u babe. :)

movin 4ward...
dat pic above is my new ezlink sticker...
The Mr bought it and immediately pasted it on my ezlink..
sweetness.....
hahaha

made a wasted trip to TTS.
only can admit one visitor.
so merepeks.
patient is even not allowed to go down to the lobby.
unreasonable tol.....

bugis

2009-05-02T06:19:00.002+08:00

the meetup yesterday was so-so
i felt kinda bored with nothing much to do.
and nothing to spend.
nyahaha
and i've got no one else to blame but myself.

met Ella for the 1st time...
and she seems a lil bit shy.
softspoken la kononnye.
the initial plan was to find her slua umbrella...
but she dropped de idea and we just moped around waiting for the Mr to come.

i dare not put my finger to anything.
but it felt kinda funny.
Jen & Phumba...
just funny ah.
but i'll just cast the feeling aside.

urgh... workin today.
menci! menci! menci!

i heart her sia...

wif Ella....

the other 2 nak step small. so hide behind me eh...

orang gilas

Phumba FAIL ah

Phumba and the curly bastard.

The Mr.......

our 1 and a half hour bus ride whoring session...
nyahahahaha

voila!~

2009-05-01T14:24:00.002+08:00

so mendaks sia.
PH today.
2moro still must go kilija.
"HALF DAY"
poof!~ there goes my LOOOooOOonnnggg weekend.

meeting some of the sophis layta.
confirm all become whores.
camwhore like gila.

tryin to get myself hyped up.
but.... cannot ler....

goosfraba

2009-04-29T23:19:00.002+08:00

the title has got nothing to do with my rants today
out of the sudden Adam Sandler came into my mind
the phrase he used in "anger management"

sidetracked (-,-)"

i am on "kemaruk gile babi" mode ah.
the happiness is so extreme till the extend of me crying to a happy happy song.
yeah its dat kemaruk.
spending 3 days with him. and dat aint enuf.
come on.. we're still having our honeymoon period sia...

he's seriousli considering shaving off dat mop of hair.
coz he irks him so much dat i keep on saying Vin Diesel's the man!
worth it meh?
he tinks by shaving that hair of his.. i'll shut up?
fat hope la eh.
most to most...
i'll go around calling him fat baldy.
wakakakakka

is he the one?

kekasih ku yg gelap. nyahahah

over and over again

2009-04-26T02:27:00.002+08:00

my turn to be kemaruks.
lol

i tink i've fallen.
big time.

the Mr is everywhere.
even on my bedroom ceiling wall.

yesterday...
we play "campak dry ice into the longkang"
hahaha mcm kanak kanak riang,

today he brought me back and forth
to woodlands.
amk.
hougang.
amk.
sembawang.

haha saket pantat jadi passenger yg tk bergerak.

goodness....

and..its 2am now...
he's picking me up at 9am later, wakakkaak
wait long long k curly porky.

mucho love... :)

the men in my life.

2009-04-24T11:23:00.000+08:00

yes.
it was meant to be men. not singular man.
hahaha i don't speak omputeh pecah ok.
quite a number of blogs i read thru/ followed thru
most of them.... *smacks forehead*

back to the title.
i am so proud of the men in my life.
basically there's 3 of dem.

Mokhtar B A____ R____ (haha i wont state daddy's full name as the Mr is so so adamant to noe my gramp's name)
Abdul Hakim B Mokhtar
Mohamad Sadiq Bin Hassan

Dear Mr Mokhtar,
i'm proud having u as my dearest dad! u've been the laidback, cool, calm, collected, cheeky, idioticly irritating at times kind of dad.
when i was still a kid... assesmennts books has been our connection bridge.
you would buy me dozens and dozens of it.
den i would have to do it.
but den... i would always ransack ur cabinet for the answer key.
and voila!~ i'd get 80/100 for most of the papers.
wakakaka without any workings/calculations.
and u would ask....
"mane working?"
"mcmane dpt answer?"
and i would blatantly lie...
"ade buat pat rough paper. tapi da buang ah!"
you knew i lied.
but nvr once ur fat fingers were laid on me.

ok la i digressed again! lol.
ur determination. reali reali made me proud.

just so u all noe... he's diabetic.
and he's been striving to let dat chronical unwanted disease fuck away.
he's reali determined i tell u.
and he gets wat he sowed...
he's sugar level did go down. by alot.

ABDUL HAKIM BIN MOKHTAR
my one and only sickenin baby bro.
(no matter how hairy u get, u're still my lil baby bro ok)

dis morning, we went out of the house together.
i was teasing him out APL ships. no jobs. no container etc.
but deep down inside.
onli God noes... how proud am i of him
he achieved something which i can nvr achieve.

when people ask "which course is ur brother in"
i would just shrug it off acting non-chalant and say "Nautical Studies"
hah! but inside me. i was bursting with pride.
my lil baby bro is gonna be so much more successful den me.
i ain't jealous. i am too happy for him.

Mohamad Sadiq Bin Hassan @ The Mr

despite the hardship thrown at him, he is still standing on his own feet.
we had a heart to heart talk last nite. (with the eye contact and the works. LOL!)
is he such a catch till there are so many obstacles dat i have to face just to be happy with him.
and i just received a call from the Mr...
he was superbly ecstatic.
he passed his practical test.

u shud thank God dear. Not me.

i guess... dis few days....
i'll be walking around with my head help up high.

i love peppermint sia

2009-04-23T13:34:00.000+08:00

i am craving for peppermint ice cream
(inside joke)
wakakakakkakakkakakakakkak

peppermint...
i'll nvr have enuf of it.
i'll never be satisfied no matter how much peppermint ice cream i ate.

tol tak jen?
nyahahahahahah

just for the thrill of it???

2009-04-22T11:11:00.000+08:00

happy wednesday people!!~~

i just had a heated debate with a random guy on my msn list.
i can't stand his msn status.
"i pay ladies who provide service"
exploitation right?

just imagine... @ 8.30am in de morning u received a msg saying

"is ur face dat screwed up till u have to pay to get laid?"

LOL!!

and his answer was...
"oh no! i do dat just for the thrill of it."

wakakkakaa
he's trying to tell me gettin STD's and AIDS is a fucking thrill.
coz the girls he was with are in it for EASY money.
so they must be pretty EASY to everyone with the "kachings" rite?

it angers me actually.
an ugly guy like him.
exploiting girls.
(kalau mcm vin diesel tkpe jugak)
i guess.. money is power.

Trust. TRUST. trust

2009-04-21T14:25:00.000+08:00

this word has been playin thru my mind like an infected track for quite some time
TRUST

picture dis.
a new acquaintance.
do we immediately trust him/her
or he/she gotta earn it 1st.

i've always said
"i dont trust people easily"
but den again...
i still get cheated/ lied at/ blablabla
so there's no point going around saying "i dont trust people"
wakakakka

but...
when we readily trust anyone.
wouldnt we be at risk of being called stupid and naive.

so tell me.
to trust or not to trust.

thank you love

2009-04-19T23:58:00.002+08:00

i am sorry.

now i've gotten a clearer view.
a better perspective.
understand the real situation.
which explains all the stupid2 things u did at times.
which pissed me off over and over again.

nothing else matters.
i am gonna stand up for you.
be firm with wat we believe in.

can Sadiq?

i was reali reali angri/pissed/mangkok wif him the night b4.
but once i saw dat mischievious twinkle in his eyes and dat lopsided grin of his...
all hell break loose right there and then in Norman's (one of his buddies) van.
i hampot-ed the Mr berbakol bakol. but smiling ah.

the 4 of us went car hunting.
@ tagore lane & ubi industrial.
i was bored man.

k la.
i am going for my checkup tomorrow.
yeay yeay tak keje! hahaha

and i am scared.
but not so. haha

Thank you Sadiq. We'll start anew.

crossed nipples?

2009-04-16T15:50:00.000+08:00

kinda funny though
petua org tua dulu.
sometimes it works.
sometimes it doesnt.

u noe bite the shoe thingy.
obviously it doesnt work on me no matter how i bite the shoes.
my feet are still gonna get blisters.

and how bout the ketok sendok in the dapur
so that the guest will leave.
ini tidak eh.
the guest bole sleepover lagi pat ruma lagi ade.

and yesterday...
right after i got back home.
my nenek... draw a X on my punat.
using kapor.
just to reduce the lump.
wif a condition, it must be done in the evening
so wat do u tink?

is it gonna work or not? hahaha
oh well... i gotta finish up my work ASAP.
so i can reach home before evening ends...
u noe.. to get my nipples crossed. hahahaha

how bad can things get

2009-04-15T11:54:00.000+08:00

i'm resigning to fate.
first dis
now dat.
Wats next?

first..
i flare up.
about pleasing people.

and now...
i fear i might have breast cancer.
omg.
the possibilities are there.

and the Mr.
he isnt even around.
and i truly understand his situation.
but den... i still need someone. ANYONE!!

is dis Karma reali hitting me back?
Thrice harder?

and saw de news regarding sheesha last nite
cant de authorities loosen up the regulations?
its like over 80% of the customers came down for sheesha
with the rule of only 20% of the area allowed for smoking.
ridiculous kan.

IF ITS BECAUSE OF HEALTH REASONS LA KAN
PLS PLS PLS SEGREGATE THOSE WHO SHOWERED AND THOSE WHO DONT IN THE PUBLIC TRANSPORT AH
ITS VERY HEALTH DETEORIATING OK.
ONE WHIFF. I CAN GET MIGRAINE.
SECOND WHIFF, I'LL WINCE.
THIRD WHIFF, I'LL BLACK OUT MAN!

STUPID STUPID.

SOONER OR LATER ALSO DIE WAT.
TKNK KENE ASAP MOVE TO COUNTRY SIDE AH

AND BTW. I'M NOT ANGRY. I'M JUST LAZY TO HIT THE CAPSLOCK KEY
HEHEHEHE

Sadiq Hassan, i don't need the stars and such. All i need is u telling me.. Everything's gonna be alright.

oooh Mondays! gotta learn to luv dem.

2009-04-13T13:33:00.001+08:00

"i promised to take u to the stars. but now, i cant even let u have a glance of it."

a very bad start.
the friggin WMS took a whole hour to load.
goodness gracious.
wasted 1 fuckin hour.
and the kaninene ahpeks are making noise outside.
they want to collect their oh-sooo-valuable-36-pallets-of-BABI
khinzir ok! babi! najis!
arggghhhh

bodonakmamposmakanbabibanyaksangatsebabtuotakbebal

and they dont seem to understand.
we start work at 8.30AM.
and dis morons... saw us coming in at 8.15am.
if possible right there and then they want their request to be generated.
like hello. i don carry my pc and fax machine around ok.
at least have the decency to wait for us to settle down and do watever is needed to be done FIRST!
ni tidak. takut nah babi2 kau hilang.
dgr2 babi2 beku ni smua maseh ade kaki pe nk jln2.

bodonakmamposmakanbabibanyaksangatsebabtuotakbebal

adding to dat... the system slowness.*smacks forehead*

one fucking hour to load.
one fucking hour having ahpeks putting in their heads at my counter window.
one fucking hour having kpochees checking out my screen.
eh hello! jadik LELAKI TKMU KPO SANGAT LA!

bodonakmamposmakanbabibanyaksangatsebabtuotakbebal

my patience is reali running short man!

and lunch hours! lagi satu problem besar.
we've been operating for almost 2 years.
and the customers should noe dat 12.30-1.30 is our lunchtime
there's a sign at the door stating 12.30 till 1.30 is our lunch hours.
but these idiots... plain stupid or feigning ignorance... chose to come at that time.

got one fucker ah. he even dare go inside the office and look for the DO's himself.
Where's basic courtesy man?!
dont tell me in Malaysia his teachers didnt teach him ah.

bodonakmamposmakanbabibanyaksangatsebabtuotakbebal

tu tak pasal.
since sean is no longer driving,
we'll just tapau our mkn ah.
and eat at our individual desk.
ni tua2 celaka kan..
wahpiang! makin seronok la.
knowing dat we are in the ofis.
naik sedap ah. nak collect timing gitu.
SELFISH BUNCH!
kadang2 kan...
mcm nak lenyek je makanan tu at their ugly faces.
geram tol!

bodonakmamposmakanbabibanyaksangatsebabtuotakbebal

saturday no exception ok.
my office is supposed to close at 12.30
but this wanker...
chose to come at 1.30
so aku kene jadi bodo and wait for him?
gggrrrr
i am pissed. so much (ok. dis sentence sounds funny)

bodonakmamposmakanbabibanyaksangatsebabtuotakbebal
bodonakmamposmakanbabibanyaksangatsebabtuotakbebal
bodonakmamposmakanbabibanyaksangatsebabtuotakbebal
bodonakmamposmakanbabibanyaksangatsebabtuotakbebal
bodonakmamposmakanbabibanyaksangatsebabtuotakbebal

and my weekend... was sooo oooh fab la eh
i spent the whole time either sleepin or playin mafia wars.
wakaka i am soulja katmoz kia (kimek name confuse abes)
and i didnt meet the Mr. kahkahkah except for yesterday.

u noe do wat?

watch him & his frens play takraw again (-,-)"
kimek. so de takde life aku ni.

i've watched fast and furios!
sembilan beb! hahaha
vin diesel... hot gile pe kau!

have a great week darlas!

gettin on my freakin nerves

2009-04-09T00:48:00.004+08:00

i don't noe.
shud i be angry or happy....
confused banget gitu lor.

him: eh bagus ah aku tk jumpe kau.
me: huh?
him: aku lagi suke kalau tk jumpe kau. mcm gerek gitu.
me: huh!?!?!?
him: coz when i dont meet u... i'll miss u more and more.
me: (senyum meleret) abe da jumpe ni. apa kau ckp ni?
him: bile da jumpe kan.... Kau irritating nak mampos. irritated sak aku! hahahahha

dats de Mr for you.
bloody curly bastard!

kemaruks la katakan

2009-04-08T13:55:00.000+08:00

i was pretty sleepy at 9 am just now.
and bit my tongue a few times whilst sleepin
haha

imagine...
i have to ship out 400+ orders.
sape tk ngantoks kan.

and i decided to blog.
but this itchy hand of mine.
godeh sane sini.
terpaksa ask for dya's help at last.
wakakakak

but nothing could be saved.
my codes are all messed up.

hence...
another skin....

and miraculously...
the sleepiness is like gone la eh
up till now...
i'm wide awake.
lols

my dear fren mrs phumba pon da kemaroks blogging.
and very de emo u noe.
step brutal jek.
prangai tkmo mcm si gothic/satanic tapi keep on saying "all men are the same!"

wakakaka
mcm paham.

i miss my sophistika's very much.
when can we meet?

someone is excited

2009-04-07T23:23:00.003+08:00

like finally the Mr has got a permanent job.
n he's superbly excited coz he gets to drive a big machine which is so slow and unstable. (trust me on dis)
a trailer would be very unstable if its not laden with any container.

so back to the point...
no more freelancing sound engineering.

rimas tau aku tgk kau asek tkde job.

so work hard. driving dat trailer.
in PSA. and we'll go Mauritius together for our honeymoon
wakakak pikir jauh habes punye

dis was snapped 2 weeks back.

tupid pig. nak step kurus berdiri blakang aku and i look very big. babi tol.

mood meter

2009-04-06T13:37:00.002+08:00

the pie chart tells it all.
so...its gonna be a long long week i guess

i'm an emotional nutcase dis week.
i cried for a fren again.

haizzz

have a great week loves.
wish for mine to be great oo.

ungrateful

2009-04-01T14:08:00.000+08:00

today i kena april fool 2 times.

wakaka
wat kind of english is dat?

ok la. stop de april fool shit.

i slept at 3 last nite.
online poker wif Farah, Tatat, Uncle and The Mr.
i wasnt in de mood to play. and bz bickering with The Mr.
the cause: i demanded my 2k worth of poker chips back from the Mr.
hah! petty i know.

and i woke up at 5.30am.
poker-ed for awhile.
and guess wat... by the time i finish siap-ing...
its already 7.
nyahaha
so i'm late again.

so...
i've got 3 choices.

a) pretend to be sick and take mc
b) take cab.
c) step berak2 and kejot daddy and suroh dia antar.

wakakakak

ok la. dahlah bapak aku antar.
i still got the cheek to sleep inside the car.
my dad. being ever so caring...
suggested that i take mc if i am so sick.
lol

but kononnye buat brave act. step hero.
padahal tk saket pon.

so ungrateful kans.
org da antar. aku bole buat taik mata.
but i got my just deserts.

betol2 aku kene berak2 eh.

shit counter till 2.40pm: 4 hits.
wakakak

DKNY... Be Delicious

2009-03-31T14:58:00.000+08:00

DKNY's Be Delicious reali works.
It will reali make u DELICIOUS!

scent of the day: DKNY Be Delicious.

wat made me say it works?

oh well, i put it on today.
and guess wat...

i talked to loads and loads of guys everyday.
but today... with Be Delicious...
4 guys have their saliva drooling
whilst talking to me.

meaning?
they took a whiff and....
i am so delicious baby!
wakakakak

tak senonoh la siak.
nak bual2 pon...
telan lah air lior tu dulu....

ni tempias sane sini.
poof apa la nasib aku nari...
kene tempias je...

wakakaka
ok. dats all.

favourite pastime

2009-03-31T00:03:00.000+08:00

it was end of de month.

so wat to expect.
our very own makan festival.
courtesy of akak yatie kita.
hahaha

talked cock all the way.
sometimes i just wish...
she's my elder sister.
so i can irritate her 24/7.

best ah lu gumok...

well some pics to make u people hungreee.....
bluekkk

the appetisers...
KUEserilla (pronounced by her)
Cheese Garlic bread.
Calamari Rings

The MainCourse
Grilled Salmon And Breaded Chicken Spaghetti

The Desserts
Italian Choc Fudge & Brownie wif a scoop of icceee creammm

My Supper
nyahaha

gemok sia prangai.
haha

Thanks beb! Appreciate it lots and lots and lots.
Dont forget my bdae cake!

bloody kanji.

2009-03-30T11:11:00.000+08:00

at the lowest and sorriest.
feelin dejected most of the time.

the other half. just a temporary leaning pillar?

u noe. like those times in World War 2.
The Japanese Soldiers.
Morale is low.
and far away from family.
so they go to the local ladies.
and seek for comfort.
from the Kanji's (comfort women)
blablabla
hokay. i'm trying to be polite here.
but to put it bluntly...
just look up to dis link and see wat comfort women means.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Comfort_women

so yeah.
i feel like one now.
i mean not sexually laaa.
just emotionally. mentally. and the materials shit.

is it. or not?

i need answers.

and i forgot the word to "prostitutes for the military" just now
and i asked around.
80% said Geisha.
wakakak

so stupid.
Geisha'a are the prostitutes for the so called elite'
nyahahaha

alas... i relented

2009-03-27T08:57:00.000+08:00

i was adamant.
so was she.

i kept on procastinating.
and delayin.
coming up with all sorts of excuses.
not wantin to go THERE.

she finally had it with me.
and attacked me full force yesterday.

damn that teeth.
it ached like hell.
i've got swollen gums.
and everytime i chew using that bitch.
she'll retaliate by sendin revolting shocks to my gums.
damn her.

alas... i relented.
i went to the dental.
RELUCTANTLY. with the Mr in tow.

and gave her all the pampering she needed.

the injection syringe was like HUMONGOUS
but... anak je la. tk saket.
hahaha

i had an xray too
phew. i was lucky.
no wisdom tooth.

ok la. cut the crap.
actuali the pain was still bearable.
i was just too sleepy to report for work yesterday.

mcmane.
i was up till almost 4am
online........ playing poker.
nyahaha

the price for 1 day of mc

birthday cake

2009-03-25T08:44:00.000+08:00

i had my super duper late dinner with the mr last nite.
we had mcdonald's somewhere near my place.
it was almost midnight.
and people on the table beside ours was busy.
rushin. with a purple color bdae cake.
when de candles were lit up, i just kept quiet.
and stared.
when de birthday gal came, i stared even harder.

the mr was quietly staring too.

i got teary eyed when the frens hugged de bdae gal.
sang her happy bdae songs.
teased her.
took videos.

that realy struck a nerve.
a very sad nerve.

i nvr had a bdae cake from "FRENS"
even from reali d close-d ones.
not even a celebration.

well...
i believe...
we do good without expectin anythin in return.
but it sucks when u have to give and always give.

u get my flow people?

saket-ing gigi

2009-03-24T15:46:00.000+08:00

wats up wif the toothache huh
huh
huh
huh

for today...
i've telan-ed a dozen of panadols.
ggrrrr

i don need madame dentist.
they are daylight robbers sia.

:(

mummy's not around to do the nagging.
so no one's gonna pester me to go to the dental clinic.

bbbaahhh

and is it too early?
too fast?
to introduce the new beau?

well some day.
some day ok.

holidays are over

2009-03-15T00:54:00.003+08:00

i had my 1 week leave.
the feelin is so so wonderful la eh
i met up wif those mina's.
and they're the most gracious bunch.

don judge a mina by their looks.
k la.
a little bit overrated.
onli minalike.
but they are young ladies just like me.

went for a 5 days kl trip wif dem.
and oh wow
i was so destressed...
almost evry nite i was tipsy.
slept at 5 am in de morn and wake up at 2 pm.
buroks kan.
wif peanuts and booze and ciggs and a helluva fun company.

did lotsa shoppin in both downtown and uptown
took rides at genting
scare ourself shitty wif the ripleys haunted house.
ate and ate and ate

just some pics...

hello kl!

after unpacking....

pantat sape je la tu

our supper @ SB cafe... mamak pon nak amek gmbr

wif my kembar sial @ club M. we didnt club due to raids....

wif mina kampong. jakon. nyahaha

me wif mina bandar n mina kampong lepakin at kopi bin

bakar jantungs

lunchin at pepper lunch

ape eh tu... A&W ehhhh

squeezed in de lift

our livin room

moks zana bdae....

i luv moks boobs

lagik satu ah!

jgn tk jadi... nyahaha

beruang beruang jadian terlepas.

our RM150 cab ride.. to Genting dat is....

pirate house ride. i closed my eyes thruout. wakakaka

merajokin as the rides are closed... WTH!

momok miang perot boncit

momok kene head spank. i like! nyahaha

nak balek! down to earth!

back from petaling shoppin

our accomodation.... KL plaza Suite... lapan bintang beb!

i had fun!
so next up...
November Bangkok trip!
the rest of the org gila's activated.
i cant wait...

oh well...
the final shot...
such a beauty...

*awwwww*

and yeah.
one more thing....
dis zura is my very very 1st bf's current gf...
see people...
wats past is past.
people do get along.
bahhh!

Shaiful Bahari's current and mantan.... nyahahaha

getaway

2009-02-24T13:52:00.000+08:00

i am in bad shape now.
i badly need a getaway
so.....
wooohhooo!
de kl trip is nearing!
shop party company.
gonna be a blast i hope.

as for now...
i'm gonna take things in my stride.
be it good or bad.

so lets face de day shall we.

i dont need cupid... :)

2009-02-15T10:58:00.002+08:00

the best valentines ever.
i had 6 dates.
i had awesome fun.
i can just be myself.
i had good food.
de hot sun didnt damage my brain.

dis girls... just so lovely!

dumdeedum

2009-02-06T11:49:00.000+08:00

mcm dah lame gitu eh tk update.
oh well...
i am forever bz.
i tink only eh.

its like freezing in de office right now
if the office freezing...
the warehouse wat eh? *shivers maximum*
ahahaha

been in a fabulous mood lately
even tho i'm like broke.
yeah
only de start of the month and yes
i am BROKE.

i have a new hobby
i sing now.
yeah
i sing in de toilet while doing business
i sing in the office eventho the system pisses me off
i sing while i am alone at my void deck.

not exactly singing ah
more like a happy happy tune.

the reason for it?
well... u gotta stay tuned and see the reason.

for all i know now...
i'm feeling blessed and luved and not left out.
heh

i miss my bebs already
14 come soon. i wanna go picnic wif my darling sophis.
pls
pls
pls

and i almost fainted.
i just saw my msg counter.
average daily usage 130+ msgs.
*faints again*

still alive...

2009-01-30T09:22:00.000+08:00

i'm feelin so grateful right now.
i swear i would have killed PAP if i've got the will.
we almost got into YET another accident last night.
ooh i forgot. he's a speeddevil.

i was kinda sleepy and was bz daydreamin at the back.
when suddenly dis ol man sped up till 160km/hr
tk terperanjat aku.
reason being, a new wanker kilas past him.
i was cursing like mad and knocked his helmet,.
dat was when he almost lose control of de bike.
but luckily he managed to recompose himself in time

ermm
waa it my fault? or was it his?

and btw.. its no longer a hayabusa.
his hayabusa now is tucked away in a container on the way to Sabah.
another touring trip. i was asked along.
but lookin at the way he rides...
just around Singapore will do.

the new ride...
Honda Hornet 900CC.

Sweet gilee punye...

ok ok...
i kinda sound like a minah tayar here.
yucks.

you don't miss your water till the well runs dry

2009-01-11T14:20:00.001+08:00

he just felt the loss....

and i am not proud of it.
haiz abu oh abu......

Sentosa Jan 09

2009-01-04T00:11:00.002+08:00

my dear gal mekmek planned for a maxi dress huntin trip.
instead i asked for a picnic date. considerin my financial status now :x
hehe but it doesnt make any difference.
de way i spend *shakes head* ish ish ish.

so Sentosa it is.
semangat kebabian ok.
auntie Sally goreng kan mee lagi
Mekmek say thanks to Auntie Sally hor...
den i brought tikar.
haha semangat.

off we go...
Me, Lil Sis and mekmek
hehe
mekmek late. *as always ah*
:p

Mekmek & Caca

Me and Mekmek

and at de bridge...
bnyk sngt pitstop...
tourist stop nak amek pics.
kite pon tompang one leg.

Lil Sis

pompan CHINA sesat

pompan CHINA ajak amek pic... :x

gals being gals...
cuci mata sane sini.
mengumpat tak lepas...
mamak bulu dada lebat pon kite kacau.
check2 aku kene marah dgn lifeguard
*sobsob*
ahahaha pasal ah!

hmmm
mandi mkn. mandi mkn....

i luv dis pic...

CorrugatedChips. mata takmao lari ar mek....

Kesejukan....

we are sibs... but muka laen eh...

Cik Petom mati laki. wakakakak

peace eh peace! hahaha

nak baleeekk!!

got eskrim?!?

BEING STUPID ON DE RIDE HOME

stupid 1

stupid 2

stupid 3

okla..
dis update is more bout pictorials...
see u all soon!
Happy 2009!

and mekmek...
thnx for de company.
i had a great time.
:)

party babes

2009-01-02T22:28:00.004+08:00

ok...
i had fun afterall.
cume pocket pokai aje.
AJE my feet
haha

ended up at St James
wif Nana, Yatie and cuzzie.
ya
dat pathetic.
only de 4 of us can make it
but who cares.

Yatie...
thnks for de pics.
tapi bnyk gmbr2 yg dlm hp kau tu...
heesh
tak save
darah boil je beb

st james was like pack gile babi
boiler was like sardine dlm tin
movida was like bulu jembot lebat
ahahaha
k la
i jus upload pics k.
malas sebenarnye...

wif KAKAK Nana

wif KAKAK Yatie

3 stooges

wif BANGLA2 sekalian

WHERE'S OUR RIDE!!!!?? nyehehe kesian big D... :p

bye lovelies! mata aku da rabak! wekekeke

Selamat Tahun Baru

2008-12-31T16:24:00.002+08:00

hello frens,

happy new year to ya'all.
hope 09 is gonna be good ol 9
:)

and ya.
i am missunderstood.
geez.

watever la.
i am seriousli in no mood.
no no mood.

any freelance clown available?

thank you sophistika babes

2008-12-29T23:40:00.002+08:00

thank you girls.
for being here for me.
acceptin me for who i am.
regardless of the past history.

appreciate u girls alot.

lookin forward for the new year hang out...

but i guess it wont be de same...
without her...

gosh...
i sound like one lesbo sia....

unease

2008-12-29T20:10:00.002+08:00

i feel restless.
i don feel peaceful.
i've been a badass.
i've hurt her.

i feel so fuckin guilty.

DO YOU GUYS KNOW HOW FUCKIN PAINFUL IT IS?!?!

i loved her just like my family.
but y did i hurl those fuckin remarks?
WHY!?!?

WHY CANT I ACCEPT TATAT?
WHY CANT I ACCEPT THE FACT THAT SHE IS CLOSE TO TATAT NOW?
WHY TATAT?!
WHY NO LONGER ME?!

I SHOULD BE FUCKIN TATAT.
N NOT HER.
AND DIS TATAT
LIKE ONE KPO SEBOK2.

i am so hating everyone rite now.

gosh...
i need peace.
i need to calm myself down.
i've been a wreck dis week.

things are just aint de same without her.

but i feel betrayed.
left out.
used at times.

i just dont know.

WHAT WENT WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????

boohoohoo

2008-12-26T01:27:00.000+08:00

the patience has taken its toll...
haiz...
i luv her alot.
i reali do...
those words i put at tagged...
was very mean.

wat went wrong?

i cried when i read her sms.....
haiz......

don believe?

my most recent pic juz now..
went for dinner wif Lil Sis and Yuyul...
haiz...
mataku....

koyak siak

wat must i do

i maybe smiling... but my eyes dont lie. i am sad...

*cries again*

bahaha

2008-12-25T14:34:00.002+08:00

sometimes...
u just gotta be selfish

sometimes...
u just gotta be bitchy

sometimes...
u will just lose ur patience and fuck it.

sometimes...
jus sometimes....
YOU'LL FEEL SO FUCKING GOOD!!!

I WONT BE A HYPOCRITE AND SINDIR SANE SINI........

Dear Ms Nur Farah Sheila,

i have nvr been ashamed being frens with u
i even admitted dat u're my bff.
but u.. juz too plain egoistic.
and i'm sick of it.

and i am sick of feeling left out.

busy busy busy

and when i was with Acit...
wahh
kutok aku number satu.
wat do u call me.......
"Dahi konek eh?"

say it again pls....

"DAHI KONEK" kan...

well...
just a suggestion...
can i call you

"DAHI KONEKS" now pls?

konek with S....

No?

well i shall not den.

coz...
i stil luv u babe.
and i am angry at ya.

i wont be crawlin back to ya.
coz i am not at fault.

whewww!

bestfrens are a hassle

2008-12-24T11:53:00.000+08:00

after a very detailed observation & recollection...

i hereby declare that...
the cause of a failed frenship is ego and jealousy and intimidation.

and don forget.. manipulation.

aku buta lagi la ni?

leceh ah
nk kene jaga hati org je...

waste of current.....

shud have known better...
double faced people; pls do avoid.

they'll make ur non problematic life a livin hell.

trust me...

send and fax equals to?

2008-12-18T22:32:00.002+08:00

a very corny convo at work.
and it indeed caused me to blush...
with paisey-ness.
haha

Boss: Siti... you send the fax over to the engineering company already?
the roller shutter cant move again
Me: Ermm wait ah. i check first.
Boss: where's de fax? send already or not.
Me: (excitedly+ dgn penoh confident) i sex it already!!!!
Boss: (blur cock look den kekek kan aku gile babi punye)
Me: (bites tongue and turned red like tomato) ah i mean i send the fax already...

So dear frens...
the new word for today....

SEX.... which means.......... SEnd + faX

equals SEX............
bahahaha

so stupid of me....

no title. u geddit?

2008-12-17T20:44:00.003+08:00

i am so fucking pissed yet so de happy........
ape punye omputeh dah....
ahahah

ok...
1st up...
Mantan tambah tattoo on his upper arm and hand.
so bodoh siak.
dats de main reason y i dont understand
y tattoos?
arrggghh

forget it...

de things i shud be happy about now...

1) New Year Eve with my sophistika babes.
2) KL trip 2009
3) Eat all u want buffet on xmas eve
4) 13th mnth boooonuussss

yeszaaa!

will do a proper update soon...
don miss me hoorr

2009 CALENDER

2008-12-06T13:48:00.002+08:00

yeah... 2-3 more weeks..
and its gonna be 2009 baby...
2008 is like a breeze...
first its here..
and like almost immediately...
its leaving...

no no
i am not gonna touch about resolutions or watever i have achieved yada yada yada

just wanna show u guys my 2009 calender...
sungguh.mengiurkan.com NOT.
hahahahh

a customer gave me a calender...
the Customer specialise in import. export n supplier of SEAFOOD...

k k?
u feelin me yet?

and the calender theme...

SUNNY BABES....

SYIRIK siaaa
not related...
ahahahah

lets take a sneak peek ok...

and dis

and dis... Pardon my desk...

ok la...
another no brainer...
hehehe

and i'm gonna destress myself.
kampong time!

aku nak maen paret! woohoooo!

dimensions... PRC style....

2008-12-03T14:45:00.001+08:00

dimensions...
the formula?
length x breadth x height....
right?

lets do some sharing...
this is wat i learnt from the PRC's at my workplace...
due to my our language barrier...
i'll just u hentambochai cina lor...
and de PRC's will use english tongganglanggang.

one fine day...
i asked one of them to take ctn dimensions...
so i drew a ctn shape and a ruler for him...
and yada yada yada...
i said.. length breadth and height...
he gave me a blur look.
a very blur cock look...
and the next thing i did...
asked Sean to become a translator...
blablabla
the PRC understood...
and he got the cheek to say...

"LONG SHORT TALL!"

sialan abes.
cikgu dorang ajar apa siak
hahaha

LONG is their LENGTH.
SHORT is their BREADTH.
TALL is their HEIGHT.

mampos siakkkk

however...
i feel grateful.
i am more priviledged then they are...

ALhamdullillah....

worth it bebeh!

2008-11-16T16:53:00.002+08:00

the initial plan was..
Sentosa.....
but due to the bad weather...
and Tatat... (ehem)
we did a detour lor...
tgh tungu...
aku sempat...
cravio moment-ing

den met up wif Farah first... mcm2 idea menakal pop up. haha

so...
Whilst waitin...
Me n Farah, managed to get a dose of our Mocha Frappe.
and yeah. i'm an addict.
sickenin sia
Tatat reached.. dgn muka yg tak bersalah. (MACAM je eh)
and we cabbed to Town...
played some pool.
and i'm the pro.
ahaha biase.
masok bakol angkat sendri...
tak percaya.. tgk gmbr.
wakakaka

see i told ya...

i'm kinda overdressed dont u tink... :p

and after which...
cabbed to laupasat.
kehkehkeh
aku melantak satay mcm nak gile.
ketagih ah.
after de cekek session...
headed down to Raffles Place.
Chill lek2.
But something crazy happened.
CAMWHORING LIKE GILA.
wakaka
nah. not those pose vogue-gy camwhoring.
dis is more priceless..
de expressions which i didnt know we are capable of making...
hahah
enjoy the pics darlings..

OTW to LauPaSat.
We got the urge to pee...
hahaha our very individual styles of pee.

1st up.. The Cramped pee

2nd.. The RelaxAbes pee

3rd.. The Coolest of all... Pee From the back. (dont try dis without adult supervision k)

wakaaakakkaka

k k

cute kan cute kan

i like dis de best... cute kan.... hahaha

Spot Tatat's hand. APA KAU NAK SELOP EH!?!??!

i feel so light last night. ahaha feeling mahu lebeh

i noe they luv it so much. look at both faces. wakakak menyetan!

lets go diving...! weeeee

US.... and our followers at the back...

dis is how kids nowadays pose rite? we just gotta have a shot of dis.

oooohhhh i love poking Farah's nose. Tatat takmo feelin spidey can?

WAZZZZAAPP!!! wakaaaka

i seriously look like Liang PoPo there. u noe.. "hoohhoooohoooohooo"

i luv lettin dem smell my armpit. Bau Chanel ok! hahaha

Blow de smokeee hahaha Farah Babik sia!

Me: mcm buah lembek gitu hantu tu tu huhuhu
Farah: Laen kali siku je mcm gini.

ah ok la
lame kan
aku tahu.
but yesterday was worth it.
i laughed till saket dada.
ahahah

sayang korang.... and Farah.. tkmo ego
i know u luv me too.
haahaha

picnic by the dam

2008-11-15T13:48:00.000+08:00

it was uncalled for.
Telletubby Jahat went out for dinner.
when i asked wat he wants to eat..
he said desert..
kau peh kau pu.
i was like freakin hungry
and all he wanted was desert
wtf
desert only.
when i suggested franktel ave's desert shop...
he said... de desert he wants is all hot fudge sundae
haha
aku peh ngirap...

and ended up...
tapau mcdonalds.
like mangkok lor..
mcdonalds and eat at yishun dam...
no pics could be taken as we are always bickering.
hahaha
stupid SJ.. (sap Jubo)

before dat...
i had a sour desert match with Sean
wakakak
i ate 1 and a half.
Sean managed one.. and he cant hardly make it.......

sour and delicioussss....

ok la... dis update is kinda random...
i had dinner wif Abu at CCK park...
he said cheekily " i noe u're gonna miss me when i'm not in Sg. so keep dis"
and he snapped his pic using my mobile...
mcm tak tahu malu gitu.
but i like laaarrr
wakakakak

gee... its kinda funny how things go on between us.
but de arrangement suits me fine.
as both aint ready to commit.
but..... we are lonely people u noe....
:)

our beloved pantat's 20th

2008-11-14T10:29:00.001+08:00

dis girl is grinning from ear to ear.
coz she turned 20?
nah i don tink so.
see de shiny shiny chain on her neck?
maybe dats de reason.
hahaha
its a gift from Skanky...
kan kan Tatat? suke? suke?

Oh well...
met up with my fellow GengDN...
and still... not full strength (ceh ceh)
jus a mini celebration for Tatat.
as usual.. they chose those cubes at centennial towers to hang.
which i kinda legongly find my way there wif microteddy.
let de pics yak ok...

Dats Sakai n Berry
Our very own love hate ~~couple~~ frens

Our bdae gal suap-ing microteddy. nak manje je. wakakaka

Us with de bdae cake. muke smua nyi biorong eh.

Luv hate and ego. dats us.

me and her... heeheee

JENG JENG JENG.. GDN...

Well Babe,
i'm wishin u all the best.
like i said...
i maybe spiteful to u sometimes.
but god knows how much i treasure our frenship...
The 4 of us has got our own characters.
and u... being the rational one.. (now i donoe la)
hahaha
u have got to be here for us?
geddit pantat?!?! haha
and i still don understand wat happened to u.
ur sudden fetish for u noe wat... haha
I LUV U TATAT PANTAT!
HAPPY 20TH!

BAHHH ABU!

2008-11-10T13:31:00.000+08:00

iIF ever i get 3 wishes from my green genie
i'll wish for.........
this heart to be emotionless
so dat watever happened.
it wont matter anymore.

the pain has been bottled up long enough
keepin de hours bz wif work, my girls and guys.
yes. guys. never a week went by without a date.
but still de gap bored in the heart was NEVER filled.
except maybe for one.
just one.
if he did not start with the touchy emotions...
i wouldnt even have felt for him.
but now, it seems dat evrythin was different from wen it started.

i didnt know wat went wrong.
i wasnt pushing him or anything.
i just prefer to let my feelings be known
maybe he read me wrong.

before his ego went right up to his brains,
jus a gentle note,
i dont lack company... attention/affection yes.
and he seems available and willing.
like i said...

he made my life more bearable since the day it was wrecked.

Ashraf Ismail...
Thanks alot.
:)

The other 2 wishes...
till next time

horrorscopeshit

2008-11-03T14:59:00.001+08:00

i've nvr believe in horrorscopes.
i find them stupid.
but horrorscopes have made me stupid nowadays.
watever is predicted...
is becoming true.
ish syirik.....
but still...
they do come true...

gggrrrr
shit do happen...
anytime, anywhere, anyhow.
yeah.
asal bole jadi je...

and a wise advice from our Mr Abu...
its better to feel the pinch now den later...
:)
ok shifu... nasihat noted.

and people...
i need ur opinion...
expensive gifts... can they buy ur heart? or just you?
i dont get it ah...
first... its a gold chain...
next... A Chanel Chance perf...
shiok kape..
i don wanna be manizer... wakaka
mcm P.. manizer...
once in a while...
kena pamper ok mah...
but definitely these things cant buy my heart
ceh ceh...

and yeah...
hope everything is gonna be fine for Mantan's family...
Mr Mohamed is gonna be released today.
i swear Mantan is his dad's carbon copy from the head to the toe..
butohead i donoe...
wakakakakk

i'm gettin more barbaric this days.
who cares...
i've got me...
i've got my girls...
i've got my life...
i've got coffee.....
urgh...
i need more coffee...
bye bye.

money is the root of problems

2008-10-25T22:32:00.002+08:00

dearest mummy

why must we fight all the time.
why cant we be at peace?
y is it always about the moolah?
why mummy..
why?

i'm reali hurt.
i cant go out in peace.
tinking bout wat u said.

idk wat else can make u happy.

i'm not the perfect daughter.
i cant get distinctions.
i've always caused trouble in skul.
i'm always going against ur words.

when i've started earning,
i tot my help could lighten ur burden.
but u keep asking for more.
den wat shud i use to support myself?
ask from others?

but i'm not like a wild animal...
i yearn for ur attention at times too.
but u seem too occupied with ur own life.

i cant help but tink our relationship is like a business transaction.

but nvrtheless i luv u mummy.
:'-(

its de tot dat counts

2008-10-22T21:48:00.002+08:00

i cant help but gettin fonder of my colleagues.
i've been reali nasty to them thruout de week
but when i turned up yesterday and

was found on my desk...
ape lagi
melantak ah...
hahaha

its de tot dat counts actuali.

on Sunday,
went to Toyol's gig which was held @ Club 6.
it was so so...
and i'm de most useless crew member of all...
haha
like seriousli
sempat gi Sim Lim Square and makan ice kachang.

MicroTeddy came.
and he's cute larr...
betol...
tak bedek...

:)

actuali i'm too lazy to update further..

and yeah...
See u guys on Saturday
(Afiq, Nisa, Azhar & Yatiee)
yg laen2 tk baca blog aku pe..
so no need to mention
hahaha
u guys have been missed.

so sorri eh...

2008-10-18T15:29:00.002+08:00

urgh.
very foul mood i'm having dis week..
apart from the mood
the appetite...
mintak ampun eh.
seriousli...
i'm forever hungry sia...
like yesterday..
i ate 4 meals.
breakfast
lunch
earli dinner.
late dinner.
(earli and late eh?)

it must be de medication i tink.
i'm like always blaming the medication.
or the pms
or watever

i am angri at myself
i am angri at the happy people ard.
i get fuckin pissed with guys.
i just dont get it.
even abu also kena fuck.

wat the hell is happening?

i'm sorri coz i don have funny2 piercings on my body
i'm sorri coz i don have the perfect female figure
i'm sorri coz i don have tribal designs inked on my body.
i'm sorri coz i don have the branded stuff.
i'm sorri coz i cant afford to own all the latest gadgets.
i'm sorri coz i cant behave more lady like.
i'm sorri coz i just shoot watever feels like coming out of my mouth.
i'm sorri coz i cant be the perfect person on that poster.

i am unaware of my shortcomings.
but i'm proud of me

like finally. an update

2008-10-13T22:54:00.002+08:00

i maybe a lil late.
but later den nvr la k.

to all those people whom i noe,
just wanna wish u people...
a very happy hari raya aidilfitri.
maaf zahir batin.
seandainya terkasar bahasa, tercaci, terluka, terkurang ajar and etc etc.
harap semuanye dimaafkan dan dihalalkan.

lack of updates...
due to... constrain of time.
seriousli.
my schedule has been pretty hectic.

a brief update of wat i've been up to de past 2-3 weeks....

de 1st day of hari raya...
basically go to dad's mum place...
and yada yada yada....
some pics...

the cucu-cucu

the anak-anak. my dad decides to be annoying.

me followin daddy's footstep. haha

one of the days..
we went to visit one of the aunts in CGH...

but wat i was excited most was....
MY VIRGIN VISIT TO JAMIYAH OLD FOLKS HOME.
i was excited gile rabak.
haha wanna see a senior relative of mine...
i am seriousli dumb uh.
i donoe who is related to who..
de simplest easy way out...
dats my tok sdare..

whilst waitin. i swear de sofa is comfy siaaa. haha

dearest uncle and Wak... cute kan cute kan de specs.. hehe

group photo w/o Kak Shalin.

dats my Mum in de center.

but when driving out of the Jamiyah premises...
i feel a lil remorseful
a little only la...
suasana pat sane sayu je ok.
and i kinda sense a tinge of unwillingness to leave Wak there...
i donoe uh.
i'm sad ok.
i don wanna put my elders there.
no matter how good the treatment is there...
and i dont wanna be there when i'm old and useless..
i just dont want to...

1/4 of cousins on mummy's side...

i and Shikin decided to be annoying (again) and refused to look at de cam.

My Family Portrait 2008

k uh. enuf of Hari Raya..
party mood pulak can?
hehe
last sat.. a chalet was organised..
last minute plannin...
slalu menjadi punye...
right Mop?
hahaha

i had my chill pill..
:)
lets do it again soon...

Sparx& Fire Reunion... haha let de powers combine....

Yan&Sparx....

Sean&Shikin. like big laupan sia de 2 of u.

Pontianak& Toyol.. haha Our tukang bakar... :)

Toyol bakar2 till tkle bukak mata.

Lil bro and GF

FINAL COUPLE....

TATAT & JAJA... haha jadi ahhh....

rina cute kan.. haha

de 4 of us....

Tatat looks so Cina.... and Mop's hair taste like ikan. yucks. hahhaha

almost there... hahahah hampa babes.

cup on the head 1

cup on the head 2

cup on the head 3

but no matter wat..
pls behave...
jgn prangai mcm 3 little pigs...

see pic below...
hahahha

have a great week luvs.
bye

I NEED HELP!!!

2008-09-20T00:17:00.000+08:00

Aidilfitri is in abt 2 weeks time.
and so i've decided i wanna have a new look.
i'm still pondering till now...
which look shud i go for...
ITS ALL ABOUT THE HAIR BABY
so i was reali hoping u guys could help me out
and gimme opinions...
would reali appreciate it alot alot...

ok...
here goes nothing.....

is dis ok??

or dis?? (de one with specs da mcm muke mak nyah sak)

hOw about the kRENTENG BASTARD look?

atau gini eh??

TAPI kan...
yg paleng aku favourite kan...
ahahahhaha
mcm ala ala Lydia Sum nye hair uh...

TADAA!!!

AHAHAHAHHA

ok ok..i'm crappin.
dis is another no brainer entry.

21st ya'all

2008-09-19T23:17:00.000+08:00

first and foremost...
its my bdae.
2ndly
i'm 21. (belom tua)
3rdly
thanks for the wishes from dearest frens.

i am so so tempted to type out all the sms i received.
just for memories sake.
can? can?

but before dat...
lets see a vid.
i was punked.
thanks eh

dats my loving family for all of you....

ok...

1st up
Khai
Slamat hari jadi katmoz syg, smoga bpanjangan umur.
dimurah rezeki
apa perkara yg da blalu anggap 1 pengajaran untok u (part nie aku *HUH?!?!)
sentiasa happy disamping keluarga u.
(ending dia touching mcm signing off)
Sekian dari mon_dut

Irritating
Helo darling..sori ah lmbt 10 min..
hapi 21st bdae..
may ur life b blesses wif ppl like me..
haha kau da tua..
(gerek pe)
insaf la eh..

Dya
Hey cutey babe!
happy 21st burfday..
may happiness n laughter fills ur life evryday.
lastly, welcome to e club laa kan! (pantat kau uh beb)

Mummy
Happy 21st birthday daughter.
don b so naughty.
hehehe ( i swear my mum has gone nuts)

Kay
Happy Birthday! Dah tua!
Love u n miss u! hahaha
(ni si tua panggel aku tua)

Abu *angau kejap*
sorry eh i bz sampai lupa awak nye bdae (thnx eh!)
Btw selamat ulang tahun yg ke 21 noh.
(and i got a prezie liao)

Nana Pontianak
Jaja HAPPY B'DaY to u yg ke 21..
dah tua (AGAIN!?!) cian dier..
hehe i wish u happy bdae n wish u all the best n enjoy ur dae.
n be happy alwaes...
Love u jaja.. (aaww)
Muackz!
Hug jaja mcm teddy bear... hehehe =)

YG PALENG AKU FAVOURITE..
from tellytuby Jahat
Happy bithday to u!! eh ada keje tak?
i nak keje ah.
(ape saje kan Andai nie. anti climax)

yg laen2 aku da malas nk type.
ahahah
ok dats all

once again thanks loves...
:)

bete abes

2008-09-17T23:32:00.002+08:00

i am shocked till now.
wat was runnin thru abu's mind last nite.
1st he's restless for de past few days.
and wallah.
on monday nite,
he met wif an accident.

and last nite...
whilst i was offline on msn...
he flooded my window wif loads of irritatin msgs.
which of course i dont mind.

but its kinda disturbin....

BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:02 PM:
boring
BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:02 PM:
xx
BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:02 PM:
haha
BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:03 PM:
sudah lah bye
BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:03 PM:
hahah
BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:03 PM:
hahahahahahahahaahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:03 PM:
sorry eh i ngan bosan
BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:04 PM:
k lah bye
BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:04 PM:
haha
BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:04 PM:
haha
BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:04 PM:
muackz
BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:04 PM:
jgn2 ajal i dah dekat eh hari2 gelisah
BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:04 PM:
hmmph
BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:05 PM:
k lah msg awak esok kalau i masih hidop eh
BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:05 PM:
bluek
BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:05 PM:
mamut i miss u
BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:05 PM:
wakaka
BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:05 PM:
dah tak betul
BrEmBo sent 16-09-2008 10:06 PM:
k lah bye

wtf is dis sia....

he's disturbed.

and work sucks.
overtime practically evryday.
mcm babi lender sia jadinye
heesh...

JOM KITE ROCK

2008-09-14T12:14:00.005+08:00

hello people...
happy sunday to y'all
in a very good mood today...

ah yes...

there's an upcoming gig on October 19...
Organised by Music Bullet Production
bands such as Rockvival, Osairis, The Bullet, Lamina and etc etc would be performin
~~i don have de softcopy of the gig ad yet uh.~~
de tix will be sellin at $8 (pre gig) and $10 @ door
if u're interested do contact me aite.
i have about 20 tix on hand now.

Uncle gone nuts sia.
pagi2 tadi time sahur....
whilst mass smokin (me, bro n him)
dgn senang hati dia melalak lagu
"i will survive"
ahahah
sod uh dia...
pagi2 buta memekak...
den he danced to Duffy's mercy song.
ish...
burok siak.
ahahah

and yeah.
after dat i slept again.
i was awakened by Jay Sean's; Maybe
dgn linch siak bukak mata.
ABU KUH! ahahaha

ok ok
stop.

dgn muke busok masai ni..
aku on msn.
hee

bdae is like a few days away...
turnin 21...
and wat have i accomplished?
nothing yet!!!
aiyoyoyoyo!
tkpe
still can work on it...

haha

i'm tired sia...
hari2 ot.
but its gonna be worth it....
:)
money joy..
joy eh?
i have approx ard $5 till payday.
coolness abesss siul
aahahahah